Friday, July 29, 2005

actually, scratch that. Just ordered the two tesuji dictionaries and on a friends recommendation "Pro-pro handicap go", which I am very excited about. Notice myself playing too much like a normal game in handicap situations, and after being shown some nice handicap openings and such I realize it's a different ballgame alltogether. If this book can make me lose a handicap stone or two against the stronger club players, it would be delightful.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Was just about to mail in my order for the two volumes that are ou in english of the Fujisawa Tesuji Dictionary.
. But on closer inspection to my account, that is not happening for another paycheck.. *sigh*

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Yesterday I played two games. First game was pretty aimless and I lost by 22 points due to letting an invasion out in to the open, and letting my opponent close off his/her moyo too easily. Played decent shape and it wasn't too horrible, but my timing wasn't really any good and the fourstar opening got the better of me. I decided to play again. And I was calm and had no expectations to the match. I decided that I would stop and think and play according to theory I had been reading on earlier (was reading Utilizing Outward Influence, chapter 3: Strong Players Seize Control of the Center)

So I made a less than ideal pincer. After this point I stopped and thought about the problems I had looked at earlier. Direction of play. Building thickness.

Here I got a a bit of freebie sente when he closed the ko as soon as I ataried. Naturally I wanted to cap off the top so that I could call it my moyo.

Here his desire to make a base/ensure life was very beneficial to me. He got a large corner, but what I was getting in return wasn't even in proportion. So I went to approach his corner at 35, and the reply was exactly what I hoped, yet not at all what I expected. I was sure that he would give me a loose pincer and try to force the corner upon me and make a position in the middle to try to get some center influence for himself. I jump to 37 and I am content. He extendes to 38 and I cap him wishing to perform a standard moyo erasing sequence. Not 100% happy with this sequence, but as the followup goes, it worked once again too perfect.

The invasion came where I expected, and I gave him every point he asked for. I was more than happy to.

The game continued on for another 140 moves or so, and the exact outcome isn't important.

It was a bitter-sweet game, since it became close to the perfect game for me. I love moyos. If black I usually play shimari corner, extend to the side and hope timing is right to make that box shaped moyo by a one-space jump from that extension. But in this game I felt that I was being helped along every step of the way. I see flaws in my plays.. big ones, but instead of being exploited I was helped to cover them up. I will try to remember this, and the most important part to remember is that I should never be expected to get this kind of help again. What was pleasant about this game was that I was relaxed, calm and reflective throughout it.

Monday, July 18, 2005

Vacation over.

Ironically, even tho I thought I'd be spending more time on improving my go during my vacation, the opposite was actually true.

Even tho my kgs progress has been abyssmal these last months, I am making progress at the club. A friend of mine who I have the lead in our games recently has progressed to 13k kgs territory, while I'm closer to falling to 17k. And even tho I have the more wins lately he is a little bit stronger.. but not 4 stones. Need to play more online.. 1 game pr. day would be alot better than maybe 1 pr. week.

Friday, July 01, 2005

"Do not pride yourself on victory, do not complain about defeat. A junzi is modest and generous; it is typical of vulgar persons to give way to irascible and furious expressions. It is good for the best players not to exalt themselves and for beginners to have no fear. Be calm and breathe regularly. If you do this, your battle is already half won, while if your face reveals your disturbance, you are already losing. No shame is worse than that due to change of feelings, no action is more base than to cheat others.
[...] When the pieces are counted [at the end of the game], do not worry
about knowing the real extent of [your] victory." - Qijing Shisanpian, ch. 13, in WANG RUNAN (ed.), op. cit., p. 19.

Beautiful. I shall try to embrace this fully. Nothing to fear. There is no pride in winning and there is no shame losing. All I want is to improve myself. Know when to fight, and when to avoid fighting. I shall try to be more balanced when it comes to go. It will be hard, but I will work with myself until there is no anxiety, no fear and no negative emotions tied to this game.